I find myself got no peace in writing anything in my blogs, got no mood to even sit down in front of my pc for longer hours...
what a terrible trip that was... a terrible trauma to me!
Until today, I could not really write as smooth as I want. The peace has gone! The joy was diminished~
I need a restoration of strength, love, peace and joy from our Mighty God, to help me in gaining trust in some ppls again. It is never easy... Due to the emotional damaged that was done.
Well, I do hope I could come out from it soon to live my life well again. You may think that Im exegerrating, BUT, you are not me, therefore you will never understand my feelings and hurts. Definitely I do not expect human to understand my situation, cos that's what human could never do BUT ONLY the Lord Jesus could do.
New semester starting in few hours' time. I pray... really hard that nothing can hinder me from serving the Lord with all my heart and distracting my study. Before all that, Lord I pray that You could help me through this incident and bring me back to the CG again.. Amen!
2 comments:
well i guess you need to look at things wider, don't be narrowed minded.
if you think people have offended maybe you shud be like God forgive them. It is not easy but hey, who are we to say no?
if we want God to forgive us, we need to forgive others as well. Not that I am perfect, but in Him I can be perfect because i was created in His image.
You are the one who asked me to look at things in a positive way-well...I am now. I am not close to church nor I am far, I am not strong yet I am not weak...
I believe if you are willing to look at things differently for awhile-maybe God will help, and if He does not,you need to move on too no matter what.
Stop sulking Eva, the world don't owe you or me anything, but we have our responsibility on our own in His kingdom. Whether or not we fulfill his desires for us-let God decide in the end.
I might not be right, but I want you to know that we are all humans created by God-equality is what I pursue.
We are not perfect on our own-we make alot alot of mistakes in life, but again, in Him we are whole and perfect.
May God bless you and hopefully we can be friends to you not only to your liking but also to our liking as well. It is not easy to like or love each others ways for it is different.
Who hurt who, we won't know, wait till the day comes all will be revealed. Why worry and take to heart when there is more things to ponder and do?
Why care about others as we ourselves cannot finish our work and chores. Let those who can think;let them think themselves-for those who can worry; let them worry themselves.
I am sorry if my ways or anyone ways hurt you or made you uncomfortable. Whatever choices we make, we need to bear the consequences on our own in the end because in the end it is just God and I;face to face.
Go on with life Eva-you got lots and lots of wonderful things waiting for you. Don't let these affect you, don't let me or john Gan stumbles you, because it is not worth it.
Spread your wings and fly!!!Forget about humans and move on with God for He is plentiful and He has plans to prosper you but not hurt you.
People have highs and lows. Maybe you are on the mountain now...I am in the valley-it is my battle to move on. Not anyone else. I got to move on even if I am sliding back.
God is beckoning me...to move on. I see you on your mountain trying to cheer me on. God says to us-move on my child, each of you have different destiny, do not be bogged down by others. We are all racing with different speed and pace.
The ultimate goal is to heaven.
Eva, I hope this is an encouragement to you, not some comments you feel hurtful.
I am just trying to make things right...
thanks brother,
I do appreciate you let your feeling out too... Im glad that I have you and John who really cares.. and sorry if my words have hurt u both...
Always keep in mind.. I care.. that's y I react that way... I wanna see all of us grow together, I do hope and pray that I can help a little. But whether effective or not the Holy Spirit will make the impact.
I nv forget how both of u have blessed me! Let not forget Clayts, my another brother in Christ. Im proud to have u guys, who borrowed his shoulders for me to cry, who take out ur time to listen to my cry... I thank God for u guys, for u guys have indirectly contribute so much into my life.. and help me to become who I am today. Definitely, w/o Christ's Love, all these can never be done.
I praise Him, always.. for all the blessings that I could see... I thank Him, for putting u guys into my life, for pouring His love in us to love one another, to share of happiness and sadness...
Thank You!
To God who has given you guys to me...
Praise Him for what He has done and who He is to us!
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