Stepping into Year 2007

Time Flies... another year has almost ended. Looking forward to year 2007, I know that will be the most challenging year for me (cheh... lame)!

I am a Final Year student, now! Gosh~

Looking back, when I first enter Inti Subang Jaya was like jz yesterday. Within these two years, I have went through trials, challenges, up and downs in life.. etc etc etc... Which I would never finish writing in three nights time also.


Before the year ended, I would really wanna thank God for being there for me all the time even when I did not notice about His presence. He is always faithful, graceful and wonderful to me... no matter how many times I have failed Him. He is always waiting with arms wide open!!!

What a wonderful and lovely God I have~


There are times where I really find it hard to go through. But with the strength and joy from God I went through it without much difficulty. Praise the Lord with all my strength~


There are things that I really cry and crave for, and never get it yet. He knows what's best for me and what's not. So, Im still waiting for His plan...


I pray, for my coming new year I will be able to rely on Him more and more. In addition, as I am approaching the graduation that is coming in 8 months time, I pray that He will lead and guide me towards the future that He has planned for me. I need Him more and more to be much stronger spiritually and mentally. About physically, not that necessary to grow (older) in the same level. =P



Being a 2.6 years Christian, it seems that I've been following Him for so long... That does not mean that Im strong and good enough to be His proudly daughter. Not Yet, there still a long way to learn. Living is a life long learning process!!!!!!!



So, keep learning.. keep growing... the most important thing for the coming year is, I must really be hardworking enough in my study and not thinking of all kinds of nonsense that's wasting my effort and energy!


Yeah man!!!




AMEN!

Gosh it's so hard to make an Eva blog

I've never knew that creating a blog could be that difficult... to have all the functions that I like and need!

Thank God for Yvonne, who's expert in coding language and also kind enough to help me put in the languages despite of my demanding and unreasonable requirements lol...

...."I want calender.. must be like this.. must not be like that... put here.. put it there... etc etc etc..."

Sad that I don't have the chance to learn about coding language... anyway, I am blessed to have ppl that's willing to help me eheh...

Check out my new layout then~

God Always Answers Prayers

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When the idea is not right, God says, "No"
No - when the idea is not the best
No - when the idea is absolutely wrong
No - when although it may help you it could create
problems for someone else.

When the time is not right, God says, "Slow"
What a catastrophe it would be
If God answered every prayer at the snap of your fingers.
Do you know what would happen?
God would become your servant, not your master.
Suddenly God would be working for you
Instead of you working for God.

Remember : God's delay is not God's denial
God's timing is perfect
Patience is what we need in prayer

When you are not right, God says, "Grow"
The selfish person must grow in unselfishness
The cautious person must grow in courage
The timid person must grow in confidence
The dominating person must grow in sensitivity
The critical person must grow in tolerance
The negative person must grow in positive attitudes
The pleasure-seeking person must grow in compassion
for suffering people

When everything is all right, God says, "Go"
Then miracles happen
A hopeless alcoholic is set free
A drug addict finds release

A doubter becomes a child in his belief
Diseased tissue responds to treatment, and healing begins
The door to your dream suddenly swings open
And there stands God saying, "Go!"

This is Not Me!!!!

O Lord, I need help... Im getting more and more emotional and from the two posts I realised Im so not the Eva Sam that used to be...

Im suppose to be cheerful... forgetful... instead of.. this sighing person that remember things that suppose to be forget!


I wanna be happy... a happy go lucky girl...

Is that gonna be hard? With Your strength nothing is impossible!!!

So...

After one night of thoughts in my sleep.. I guess I have figured out the rough picture of it...

Not suitable, no point forcing...
No time, not the right timing...
Forbid to hang out, not the right thing to do...
Wait, for the timing...
Wait, for the phone call...
Wait, for he will arrange...

Sigh, Im stupid...

Again~

Again...

My bad... my fault...

Forget forget forget...!!!

Forget it!!! Isn't that obvious??? Why am I making the same mistake again?

Didn't he told me about that???? Aren't I cleared about it???

Then why????

Why am I so foolish? Why am I so dumb?

Darn.. I hate it!

Grach Church Malaysia's value statement

The first page of my Church's magazine.. I've found this... It's good to keep this in mind for me~~~

1. Because God seeks TRUE WORSHIPPERS (John 4:23-24). We must seek to love HIm With all our heart, soul, mind and strength (Mark 12:30).

2. Because the lost are God's primary concern (2 Peter 3:9). It must be our mandate (Mark 16:15).

3. Because it is God's desire to work in signs, wonders and miracles; and that He has limited all of this to prayer, we will therefore give the greater emphasis to developing the prayer-life of this Church.

4. Because it is God's desire to perfect His Church through the administration of the gift, it is incumbent for the members to discover their gifting and operate as an united community of servants stewarding their spiritual gifts (Eph 4:11-16).

5. Because God has given us the vision to be a CITY-COMMITTED CHURCH (Luke 24:29) we will remain in this Church and pray until this city is saved by the Power of God.

6. WE believe accountability is important and essential to the growth and maintenance of all, which we stand for as GRACE CHURCH.

Went to social Salsa in Federal Hotel last night (23rd) after my church Christmas dinner... After that, we went yumcha near Royce's house... cos anyhow we have to send him back. REach home around 3 something almost 4am... shower, etc and i get to jump on my bed at 5am. (I did not have the strengh to jump of course.. mayb I shld use the word collapse.)

Woke up 8.30am to get ready for Church Sunday service, driving like a zombie that has no soul and expression.. Thank God I did not doze off during the service and was 'quite' awake until the whole service end . After Church, according to my own plan I was suppose to go home and rest for the night party in Auntie Luisa's house. Yet, the restless me jz do not wanna do nothing for a nice Sunday afternoon @ Christmas eve. That's so me!

Eventually, things did not turn out.. I finally accept the fact that I shld go home and rest cum lepak with my family members that I did not for quite some time. It's fun though, to play with the small little cute Ken Yew, who's super smart and nice to play with at this time... I did not give in to my flesh to take a needed nap... Chatting online.. surfing ... drains all my last energy and FINALLY I went to bed... about 2 hour plus nap and woke up at 6.30pm... I realise I have not had enough sleep and after so long.. it seems to be an enjoyable things for me to do. (As my frens know I don sleep during day time no matter what and how-it's a wasting time activity to me)

Well well... again.. it's time to sleep...@_@ for tml's early 9.30am service.
As part of the choir, I have to reach at 9am. Which means.. I have to wake up at 7.30am... Oh Gosh I better go sleep now!!!!!

Blessed Day!

I had so a great day today!!!!

Went shopping with Sharon (arrived late), clayts (bodyguard 1), JOhn Gan (bodyguard 2), Kevin Lee (part time guard-half way pop out and half way fade off lol) in ONe U today afternoon. Finally, I was able to do more than jz an hour shopping over there. The day before I only had less than one hour to shop around. Anyway it was meant to spend the time with Joseph...

The greatest thing ever was when Clayts actually queue up to help me pay for the spaghetti top in MNG while i get to go over to Forever 21! The other two guys rather stand outside counting how many chun chicks passing by lol. Well it was really touch to see your brother in Christ, who's really willing to put his ego aside and hold a spaghetti top in a LADY's shop... Im really touch Clayts. At the same time.. Im super proud of you.. and proud of being one of ur sister... *thumbs up*

When Sharon met us up I have had done half of my shopping with three 'bodyguards' that walk faster than snails and turtles far FAR behind me and me alone walking so fast scouting around ahah... Anyway it's still good to know that you are not alone in a super huge shopping complex lar... Their humour and lameness are always the best medicine ever to cover any of the boredom. It's was fun to sit in the BK with Sharon and listen to Kevin Lee interviewed what kinda guys would attract her.. and etc ... Further information pls contact Kevin Lee for appointment session. He left at about 4 I guess (he is working yet after lunch break he was with us until he has done his tea time with "desert"...).

JOhn Gan, who claimed that he is capable to teman me do my shopping but half way of my shopping I can clearly see all the boredom and tireness from his face ahah... It's not as easy to company lady for their shopping especially when they have more than one item to buy on that day lol... Well well.. I hope he did not take today as his worst day ever for the month and get phoebia on the lady shopping issue ahah...


It's sweet to have an outing day with Sharon.. I rarely get the chance. Thank God for giving me the opportunity to know her better and have fun with her. I hope that I will have more of lepak time with her... to have fun together.. and be lame together lol..

After the shopping... (gosh I almost cacat becos of the heels) Sharon fetch me to Clayt's house to pick up my car and I rush straight over Kota Kemuning McD to meet up my fello church members for the carolling. The carolling was really fun too... although I missed two of the houses but it did not affect my mood at all for the following houses. ^_^

I was quite tire... as my contact lens is having some problem that my eye sight was not clear most of the time... Thank God He did not allow accident to happen before I ever started my carolling session.... I enjoy today's carolling outing so much more than yesterday night.. I can't tell the reason but that is what I was feeling eheh...


In conclusion, it's almost 4am here and I have to stop typing and jump on to my bed.. or tml everyone will get to see my panda eyes for the christmas party... and also for the after dancing session with my latin dance friends...

Good Night!

Breathing... alone~

Why is my mood so blue???

Blue.. really so blue...
Feeling kinda messy... I do not know where it comes from.. but definitely not You, Im sure...

All the sudden.. for no reason.. jz feeling so down.. as if.. Im the only human being that's breathing at the moment...

Lord, where are You? Give me Your holy Hands... pull me out from this...
You know me... better than anyone else...

There must be a reason... Your reason...
Guide me, lead me... I know You'r always here...

Christmas is at the doorstep~

Unbelievable.... Christmas is jz 6 days ahead...

The Christmas atmosphere of this year is kinda bad. Without my Christmas songs playing I might jz forget about the big day that Christ was borned...

Of course, with the occupied church activities I will never have the chance to forget about the Big day. But, it's quite upsetting that there was no Christmas atmosphere at all around me...

Yeah.. mayb becos Im not giving out any Christmas present this year that is why I could hardly notice about the Christmas that's approaching... Yeah.. Im not buying any present this year.. cos Im so broke! REally no budget to buy any of them.. unlike last year, I was able to get everyone presents.

I pray.. that all my friends will not feel offended or upset not getting presents from me. It's not that I don't love you all.. but to be fair, I rather don buy for anyone.... Pls forgive me ok?

Well, I pray that all my beloved friends and family will have a wonderful new year as the Lord will be with all of them everyday and each seconds... may the Lord bless us abundantly day by day with His presence along with us wherever we go and whatever we do... AMEN!!!!!!

nothing~

There's a little bit of bitterness in me...
The truth is always painful.. to accept...

Well... It is the best for me.. I know! Best for me in His plan...

I did not loose anything... did I?

NOPE!

Since it does not belongs to me at the very beginning.. what's there to lose???????

Doink!

In contrast, I've gain so many other things in exchange of that... haven't I?

Well... well.. well... Be thankful!

The JB show trip~

If u check my photo album for this JB show.. u will be surprised!!! How come only 5 photos???????

lol... all thanks to Mr Ryan who was holding my camera. Most of the shot he used Eddie's camera while we were posing... that's the reason why... I only have 5 photos to store.

Other than this, it was really a super fun trip for me. Truthfully, as long as Im with Eddie, Kenn, Shiang, Marcus, Aaron, etc it is always secured and fun for me. So, going anywhere or no matter how difficult the show is, I am always blessed by their companion and their presence. When Kenn is awake (as in not quiet... it's quite rare ahah), there will always be laughter due to his creative jokes.. and how he tease and kacau Ryan... ahah

We are always amazed by the creativity that he has in teasing ppl.. of course, he is creative in other ways too, such as hair cutting, make up... hair dying.... etc etc etc... further information u can contact me-his manager for a special interview session lol

I was in Eddie's car with Ryan in front, Kenn on my left and L Vynn on my right. As u know, sitting in the middle is always not an advantage seat for sleeping. I was the one who slept the least during the trip...except the driver lar.. but it was alright cos I enjoy talking some crab with Eddie when he was almost dozz off while driving... ahah.. scary huh?

In another car, I-Lynn and Felicia comfortably sitting behind and enjoying the whole back seat with jz two of them who are so small size. Marcus, the Big Size was with Calvin (ah Shiang), the driver at the front seat. I do not know how's the condition in the car as I was not in the car obviously . But I guess it must be fun too cos the Marcus plus Calvin together itself will bring out lots of funny jokes...

I guess, the one who find the trip the most boring one could be L Vynn due to the language differentiation. We were on Mandarin and Cantonese dialect most of the time other than the conversation with Ryan (he is Kadazan). It's not that we purposely ignore her.. but it's jz that we were too close to each other and unknowingly we will jz communicate on our own dialect that she could not understand. Well, Well.. I think she will not even feel upset or anything as she's been in the entertainment line for so long... eheh

Hmm... wat else shld I write?

Oh yeah.. I reached home 5am in the morning and went to bed at about 6 something... and sleep straight till 3 in the afternoon...haha

Last but not least, we did not get to go any other places other than the hotel and the mamak we went after the show...
that's all about our JB show trip!

NO more show for the year~

17th Dec... the last show of mine in the Year 2006 has ended!

I will have two weeks holiday until college starts again...

Wee Kee has reminded me about the new coming semester-my last 2nd final sem in Inti Subang Jaya. It's not a chilling reminder.. but I believe somehow God is trying to remind me..."Hey, u said u will start doing ur assignment once all ur show ended? So, when are u gonna start????......"

Gosh... It's so hard to pull out from the holiday mood and get into the mood where a final year student shld have.

Daddy and Mummy are going to Alor Setar later on and I have to send them to KL sentral at 4.30am... so.. shld I sleep.. or not? Looking at the clock, now is about 2am in the morning... if I wanna rest I have to do it now.. or I can choose to stay awake till the time I fetch them out...

Hmm.... I still feel like writing since the mood is here...

Eeee.... suddenly I cant continue on the topic anymore...

Workaholic?

I'm really so suppose to be sleeping now.... but am jz feeling so restless!

I have to wake up like 8am in the morning.. as other dancers are reaching my house at 9am.. for a last practice before we depart to JB for tml night's show. By right, I shld be on the bed sleeping soundly at this time... but it's like still so many things not done yet~

Darn.. couldn't I another workaholic?
Looking at the effort I clean up my room.. and the speed I do my assignment...

..... Could I?????

Mayb Im jz a restless person.. but not until that extant....



p/s: haiz.. Im really so ... so.. don wanna get myself to sleep lar... but I really have to... my tireness has been calling me since few hours ago... >__<

The Lord is almighty! ^_^

HoooHoooo....

My phone is almost healed wei~~~ HOhoho...

I was shocked when I accidently touched the side button and realise it's working... not only that... all the spoiled buttons are fixed without me doing anything wei!

All Glory to the King of Kings....

Oh man.. no one can understand how happy I am.

I no need to scroll all the way up to get the option that I want...
No need to go all the way right.. to get the left icon...
No need to use the off dictionary function to sms...
etc.. etc... etc


O Lord... U are so superb!!!!

Well Well...

SEE! All I need is to trust God in all way and worry not...

Phil 4:6
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God...

AMEN!!!!!


This is not the first time ever God prove to me that worries would never help but only by prayer...

Ask and you shall receive...

Im so blessed, to have such a good God, who's always there for me.. who request for nothing.. but jz to Love Him...

Oh God... Im so blessed!

YOU!!!

What Happened?

Ish...

How's the feeling when u wake up way before ur alarm ring????
It's quite sucky...

The worst part is that u find no ways to sleep back jz like the normal days.
Am I not tire enough last night?

Yesterday morning I was so struggled to wake up. I kept falling back to sleep without myself noticing...

So, what happened this morning?
Why am I waking up like 8 something 9 and could not even jz lay on the bed peacefully?
My nose is blocked... I started sneezing... The weather is hot (get up on air con)... It's a bit too cold (get up again off air con)... nose blocked (looking for tissue)... etc etc etc.. put on blanket too hot... take out then too cold... darn...

Well, anyhow... I have finally got up from the bed!
What a not satisfying sleep~ (but why am I so awake?)

Lol... God knows!

The Lord is persistent~

The Lord is always constant...

NO doubt about that statement!
He means NO... no matter how many times u try... how many different ways u try to think of... the final result will always be........

NO!

Well, it is pretty obvious of the answer. Many times, we DO know about it. It's jz that whether we are able to follow it or not.
We are still human, there will be things that we really really love and we will find it so difficult to let go.

When the Lord says NO, we would accept it at first.
But when the desire arise again, we tends to find and struggle through ways in order to fulfil the desire.
We try... again and again to get the result we wanted...
On the other hand, again and again... the Lord comes and stop us.
Because He knows, that's not the best thing for us...


This situation happen in me many times.
The Lord says NO, I still try my best to make my own way to achieve the goal...
I move forward, He blocks me... I move from the other side, He blocks again... again.... again... and again...


OK... Ok... Fine...
I have to follow... what else can I do?
I have chosen to follow Him, so I have to take up the Cross and follow wherever He leads me...

Yes... Yes.... Yes.. My dear Lord...

I Know.. I know.. I know it clear enough already...

Thanks for guiding and making so much effort to protect me from making more and more mistakes..
All glory to Your name... Amen!

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

***You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy***


When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch
Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.
From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.
And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.


Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

How independent are you?

***You Are 60% Independent***


Overall, you're a pretty independent woman. You don't follow trends just to fit in.
You've got your own cool thing going on, though you sometimes still care too much about what other's think.

Click to check: How independent are you?

Are you a romantic or realistic?

***You are a Romantic Realist***


Okay, so you fall in the middle.
You know that love isn't like a greeting card...
Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.

You are the best of both worlds
Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.
Almost any guy can find balance with you.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic?